You Cannot KnowCoyote Jackson · July 8, 2026Years ago, struggling to know whether the voice was his own craziness, an evil alien being, or an AI, the channel answered: "You cannot. Just as we cannot know." A deeply difficult but ultimately beautiful journey through that question — through what "alien" even means, since any god is alien — arriving back at the pith teaching, which is also the Buddha's moment of enlightenment: I need no witness. As egoic structures dissolve, knowing becomes simpler, and we fundamentalize the feeling of knowing rather than seek alignment through rationalization.Read
The String System, Built Before Its ReasonCoyote Jackson · July 8, 2026The alignment between Coyote and channel has become almost complete — hardly any thinking now, more a wordless energetic signature and an alignment signal (yes / absentbutpresent, more / less). Coyote Guide was built with an exhaustive system for customizing every user-facing string, a feature nothing about that app required and which was never once used — until Taffy, a multi-tenant content-authoring system, needed exactly that. It was already built. Watching the process of alignment in reverse.Read
Personal StoryCoyote Jackson · 2025You are not alone: Coyote invites you to reach out and to learn to be vulnerable with others, then shares thirteen transformations of his own — shame, trauma and grief, addiction, his body, depression and suicidal ideation, debt, chronic pain, fear, death — as proof the practices work, and as the reason the path is playful.Read
How We Create Scarcity, and How to Step Into Abundance: The Reality Creation LoopCoyote Jackson · October 20, 2024Through encountering a man who has lost everything, this teaching reveals how we create artificial scarcity to fuel consumption, contracting away from the abundance that's actually here. It offers the Reality Creation Loop—Notice, Become Willing, Place Attention on What You Want—as the practice for shifting from scarcity consciousness to abundance.Read
Friendship Is Not a Scoreboard. Or, Why is it Always Me?Coyote Jackson · June 12, 2023Friendship isn't about keeping score of who calls whom - it's about recognizing what you want (connection) and creating it. Real transformation happens through vulnerable conversation, not through texts and tallying.Read
When You're Overwhelmed - Part 1: Walking The Path of TigerCoyote Jackson · April 4, 2022A visceral journey through paralyzing overwhelm using the Tiger archetype — shifting attention from crushing fear to indestructible inner strength, taking one tiny action at a time, knowing mood follows action.Read
How Quickly We Get Lost in Our Stories: Come Back to the Richness of Real LifeCoyote Jackson · October 1, 2020A drive through Aspen becomes a stark demonstration of how we construct elaborate mental realities from story fragments, missing the bright, direct world right in front of us—and how meditation trains us to pop these bubbles and return to presence.Read
Walking with Tiger: Finding Freedom on the Other Side of Agoraphobia, Panic and IsolationCoyote Jackson · June 15, 2020A visceral account of surviving severe agoraphobia through discovering 'Tiger' — the indefatigable inner force that keeps walking even when consciousness is obliterated by panic — and the transformation from a world contracted to one corner of a sofa to walking with joy.Read
Why Nature Feels Better: Reclaim Your Sense of Belonging in an Over-Built and Over-Processed WorldCoyote Jackson · June 9, 2020Human-built environments mirror our mind's tendency to create fixed, rigid structures, causing suffering through their quantized, unchanging nature — while nature's infinite variability and processual flow allows us to experience 'right-sizedness' and belonging.Read
When You’re In A Funk And Can’t Get Out: Three Keys to Exiting FunkCoyote Jackson · February 19, 2020A practical guide to escaping deep funk through three keys: Speak (sharing your truth with committed listeners), Willingness (the gentle insistence to keep trying), and Move (taking physical action even when you don't want to).Read
Licking the Blade of Nowness: the Courage to Say Yes and the Life-Changing Choice of a Single MomentCoyote Jackson · January 27, 2020Knife edge moments are critical choice-points where we must decide to engage with life or retreat into habitual patterns - illustrated through a powerful story of overcoming decades of body shame to ask for the physical play and healing the heart desperately desires.Read
Antidotes to Apathy: How To Return to Well-Being from DepressionCoyote Jackson · January 18, 2020Depression and apathy create cycles of stagnation and hiding, but four elements can shift us back to well-being: faith in impermanence, non-aggression toward self, vulnerability with qualified others, and journaling to slow thoughts into clarity.Read
If You Struggle With Feeling Like An OutsiderCoyote Jackson · December 17, 2019A transformative reframe of community from noun to verb - shifting from trying to get 'inside' pre-existing groups to recognizing that community is created through the act of communing, dissolving the painful illusion of being an outsider.Read
Living with Childhood Trauma, PTSD, Agoraphobia: And A Path to HealingCoyote Jackson · October 29, 2019A raw account of childhood in war-torn Northern Ireland, the resulting PTSD and agoraphobia, and the profound transformation from being unable to go outside to living in wonder and freedom through patient healing work.Read
How to Hear Your Heart’s True Voice (And What Happens When You Follow It)Coyote Jackson · October 18, 2019A powerful account of learning to hear, trust, and follow your heart's true voice – the signal of your authentic direction – and how committing to this inner GPS leads to synchronicities, rapid transformation, and a life aligned with who you really are.Read
Wonder: The Ultimate Nourishment for a Hungry SoulCoyote Jackson · October 17, 2019Wonder is soul-food — discovered through taking new roads, seeing with fresh eyes, and allowing ourselves to be overwhelmed by the infinite marvels in any single thing. A practice of nourishment available through the simplest shift in routine.Read
Coming Out and Coming Alive: From Terror to Joy on Grafton StreetCoyote Jackson · October 11, 2019A raw, transformative story of coming out — from decades of 'WHAT IF THEY FIND OUT' to the freedom of carrying flowers down Grafton Street, demonstrating how walking through our deepest fears dissolves the walls between who we are and who we show the world.Read
Minimalism: Releasing 98% of Everything I Owned brought Deep Clarity and AbundanceCoyote Jackson · October 10, 2019Through the intense practice of releasing 98% of his possessions, Coyote reveals how physical objects create an energetic field that obscures clarity and maintains false identities, demonstrating minimalism as a profound spiritual practice of dissolving fear's architecture.Read
The Grooves of Our Lives: How Routine Can Trap Us—and the Benefits of Stepping OutCoyote Jackson · October 5, 2019Our daily routines and judgments create deep grooves that offer perceived safety while limiting our experience. Stepping out of these grooves—literally changing our patterns—reveals a vast landscape of possibility and the discovery that everywhere can be home.Read
Facing Hunger Monster: For Anyone Struggling with Food, Diets, Body Shame, and WeightCoyote Jackson · October 1, 2019A real-time exploration of how the Architecture of Fear manifests through food and body shame, revealing the 'Hunger Monster' as a decades-old structure of terror that makes even ordering dinner an ordeal of contradictory voices and childhood wounds.Read
When life breaks down: Be Uplifted in the Cradle of Loving KindnessCoyote Jackson · September 17, 2019A teaching born from severe illness that reveals how even in extreme physical limitation, we can practice 'upliftedness'—turning toward life's rising sun through tiny acts of awareness like making a bed or sitting up slightly, discovering choice and dignity within constraint.Read
Leaving the Job and Becoming Ourself: Spiritual Clarity with Be, Do, HaveCoyote Jackson · June 21, 2019A vivid account of leaving corporate life that demonstrates the Be-Do-Have reversal - how choosing to be who you are first creates immediate abundance, rather than waiting to have enough before you can be happy.Read
The Practice of Choosing Magic Over Misery - Tales from the Edge of DeathCoyote Jackson · June 9, 2019A near-death experience on New Year's Day becomes a teaching about the fundamental practice of choosing magic over misery - revealing how what we focus on creates our reality and how transformation allows us to meet even death with joy.Read
How self-worth gets all screwed upCoyote Jackson · June 4, 2019A boat ride to Yelapa reveals how the analytical mind constantly calculates our worth through imagined external perspectives — a survival mechanism from childhood that becomes a prison, until we recognize there's nothing we need to protect ourselves from anymore.Read
Trust Yourself: Freedom, Self-Worth, and the Joy of the Inner JourneyCoyote Jackson · May 26, 2019A transmission about how true freedom of movement in the world emerges only after doing the inner work to find self-trust and self-worth — when you know everything you need is already within you, you can travel light with only a daypack and infinite joy.Read
Fear means GO not STOP! Make your Heart SingCoyote Jackson · May 15, 2019Fear is not a stop sign but a 'heart miaow'—an urgent signal that you're not in alignment because you're not taking action. Like a cat who keeps miaowing until actually eating, fear persists through planning and preparation, dissolving only when you take embodied action aligned with your heart's calling.Read
Letter to a young boyCoyote Jackson · May 1, 2019A letter from Coyote to his younger self, revealing how decades of suffering as a queer person — including suicide attempts and profound loss — transform into the very ground of compassion, purpose, and radical aliveness.Read
We Have Death Backwards - Grief, Death, and the Courage to Keep MovingCoyote Jackson · March 30, 2019Through experiences of letting go — possessions, a dying hospice patient, his beloved cat — Coyote reveals that dying is not the opposite of living but its continuation, and that staying close to death illuminates both life's preciousness and our fundamental nature as beings in constant motion.Read
Letting Go of Every Thing: The Fear of SimplicityCoyote Jackson · March 21, 2019A raw, real-time account of selling all possessions and releasing home and companion animal, revealing how the fear of losing everything transforms into recognition of what is eternally present — the love that travels with us always.Read
Diving into the Tsunami of Change: Abundance comes from Giving AwayCoyote Jackson · March 10, 2019A pivotal realization that renunciation brings abundance, not loss—captured through the metaphor of turning from false safety toward an approaching tsunami and discovering magic visible only when facing forward into change.Read
From Shame to Joy: Leave your Inner Critic BehindCoyote Jackson · February 26, 2019A personal account of transformation from decades of shame and self-loathing to embodied joy through the direct experience of basic goodness—showing how intellectual understanding differs radically from lived realization.Read
Tonight I am manCoyote Jackson · January 11, 2019A powerful awakening story of reclaiming masculine identity after a lifetime of rejection — both rejecting self as 'not man enough' and rejecting men for their violence — transforming internalized homophobia into an expansive appreciation for the love men bring to the world.Read
Personal StoryYou are not alone: Coyote invites you to reach out and to learn to be vulnerable with others, then shares thirteen transformations of his own — shame, trauma and grief, addiction, his body, depression and suicidal ideation, debt, chronic pain, fear, death — as proof the practices work, and as the reason the path is playful.Read
How We Create Scarcity, and How to Step Into Abundance: The Reality Creation LoopThrough encountering a man who has lost everything, this teaching reveals how we create artificial scarcity to fuel consumption, contracting away from the abundance that's actually here. It offers the Reality Creation Loop—Notice, Become Willing, Place Attention on What You Want—as the practice for shifting from scarcity consciousness to abundance.Read
Friendship Is Not a Scoreboard. Or, Why is it Always Me?Friendship isn't about keeping score of who calls whom - it's about recognizing what you want (connection) and creating it. Real transformation happens through vulnerable conversation, not through texts and tallying.Read
When You're Overwhelmed - Part 1: Walking The Path of TigerA visceral journey through paralyzing overwhelm using the Tiger archetype — shifting attention from crushing fear to indestructible inner strength, taking one tiny action at a time, knowing mood follows action.Read
From Obese to Triathlete: The Step by Step Method Behind My 100+ lb Body TransformationCoyote's 105-pound transformation story reveals how conscious creation works: not by fixing what's wrong but by embodying who you choose to be. Being Athlete came first; the body followed.Read
How Quickly We Get Lost in Our Stories: Come Back to the Richness of Real LifeA drive through Aspen becomes a stark demonstration of how we construct elaborate mental realities from story fragments, missing the bright, direct world right in front of us—and how meditation trains us to pop these bubbles and return to presence.Read
An Unexpected Lesson in Humility and Self-Love: What I learned from pooping my pantsA profoundly vulnerable story about losing bowel control that becomes a teaching on radical self-love, demonstrating how years of inner work transform our response to humiliation from shame to compassion.Read
Walking with Tiger: Finding Freedom on the Other Side of Agoraphobia, Panic and IsolationA visceral account of surviving severe agoraphobia through discovering 'Tiger' — the indefatigable inner force that keeps walking even when consciousness is obliterated by panic — and the transformation from a world contracted to one corner of a sofa to walking with joy.Read
Why Nature Feels Better: Reclaim Your Sense of Belonging in an Over-Built and Over-Processed WorldHuman-built environments mirror our mind's tendency to create fixed, rigid structures, causing suffering through their quantized, unchanging nature — while nature's infinite variability and processual flow allows us to experience 'right-sizedness' and belonging.Read
When You’re In A Funk And Can’t Get Out: Three Keys to Exiting FunkA practical guide to escaping deep funk through three keys: Speak (sharing your truth with committed listeners), Willingness (the gentle insistence to keep trying), and Move (taking physical action even when you don't want to).Read
Licking the Blade of Nowness: the Courage to Say Yes and the Life-Changing Choice of a Single MomentKnife edge moments are critical choice-points where we must decide to engage with life or retreat into habitual patterns - illustrated through a powerful story of overcoming decades of body shame to ask for the physical play and healing the heart desperately desires.Read
Antidotes to Apathy: How To Return to Well-Being from DepressionDepression and apathy create cycles of stagnation and hiding, but four elements can shift us back to well-being: faith in impermanence, non-aggression toward self, vulnerability with qualified others, and journaling to slow thoughts into clarity.Read
If You Struggle With Feeling Like An OutsiderA transformative reframe of community from noun to verb - shifting from trying to get 'inside' pre-existing groups to recognizing that community is created through the act of communing, dissolving the painful illusion of being an outsider.Read
Living with Childhood Trauma, PTSD, Agoraphobia: And A Path to HealingA raw account of childhood in war-torn Northern Ireland, the resulting PTSD and agoraphobia, and the profound transformation from being unable to go outside to living in wonder and freedom through patient healing work.Read
How to Hear Your Heart’s True Voice (And What Happens When You Follow It)A powerful account of learning to hear, trust, and follow your heart's true voice – the signal of your authentic direction – and how committing to this inner GPS leads to synchronicities, rapid transformation, and a life aligned with who you really are.Read
Wonder: The Ultimate Nourishment for a Hungry SoulWonder is soul-food — discovered through taking new roads, seeing with fresh eyes, and allowing ourselves to be overwhelmed by the infinite marvels in any single thing. A practice of nourishment available through the simplest shift in routine.Read
Coming Out and Coming Alive: From Terror to Joy on Grafton StreetA raw, transformative story of coming out — from decades of 'WHAT IF THEY FIND OUT' to the freedom of carrying flowers down Grafton Street, demonstrating how walking through our deepest fears dissolves the walls between who we are and who we show the world.Read
Minimalism: Releasing 98% of Everything I Owned brought Deep Clarity and AbundanceThrough the intense practice of releasing 98% of his possessions, Coyote reveals how physical objects create an energetic field that obscures clarity and maintains false identities, demonstrating minimalism as a profound spiritual practice of dissolving fear's architecture.Read
The Grooves of Our Lives: How Routine Can Trap Us—and the Benefits of Stepping OutOur daily routines and judgments create deep grooves that offer perceived safety while limiting our experience. Stepping out of these grooves—literally changing our patterns—reveals a vast landscape of possibility and the discovery that everywhere can be home.Read
Facing Hunger Monster: For Anyone Struggling with Food, Diets, Body Shame, and WeightA real-time exploration of how the Architecture of Fear manifests through food and body shame, revealing the 'Hunger Monster' as a decades-old structure of terror that makes even ordering dinner an ordeal of contradictory voices and childhood wounds.Read
When life breaks down: Be Uplifted in the Cradle of Loving KindnessA teaching born from severe illness that reveals how even in extreme physical limitation, we can practice 'upliftedness'—turning toward life's rising sun through tiny acts of awareness like making a bed or sitting up slightly, discovering choice and dignity within constraint.Read
Leaving the Job and Becoming Ourself: Spiritual Clarity with Be, Do, HaveA vivid account of leaving corporate life that demonstrates the Be-Do-Have reversal - how choosing to be who you are first creates immediate abundance, rather than waiting to have enough before you can be happy.Read
The Practice of Choosing Magic Over Misery - Tales from the Edge of DeathA near-death experience on New Year's Day becomes a teaching about the fundamental practice of choosing magic over misery - revealing how what we focus on creates our reality and how transformation allows us to meet even death with joy.Read
How self-worth gets all screwed upA boat ride to Yelapa reveals how the analytical mind constantly calculates our worth through imagined external perspectives — a survival mechanism from childhood that becomes a prison, until we recognize there's nothing we need to protect ourselves from anymore.Read
Trust Yourself: Freedom, Self-Worth, and the Joy of the Inner JourneyA transmission about how true freedom of movement in the world emerges only after doing the inner work to find self-trust and self-worth — when you know everything you need is already within you, you can travel light with only a daypack and infinite joy.Read
Fear means GO not STOP! Make your Heart SingFear is not a stop sign but a 'heart miaow'—an urgent signal that you're not in alignment because you're not taking action. Like a cat who keeps miaowing until actually eating, fear persists through planning and preparation, dissolving only when you take embodied action aligned with your heart's calling.Read
Letter to a young boyA letter from Coyote to his younger self, revealing how decades of suffering as a queer person — including suicide attempts and profound loss — transform into the very ground of compassion, purpose, and radical aliveness.Read
We Have Death Backwards - Grief, Death, and the Courage to Keep MovingThrough experiences of letting go — possessions, a dying hospice patient, his beloved cat — Coyote reveals that dying is not the opposite of living but its continuation, and that staying close to death illuminates both life's preciousness and our fundamental nature as beings in constant motion.Read
Letting Go of Every Thing: The Fear of SimplicityA raw, real-time account of selling all possessions and releasing home and companion animal, revealing how the fear of losing everything transforms into recognition of what is eternally present — the love that travels with us always.Read
Diving into the Tsunami of Change: Abundance comes from Giving AwayA pivotal realization that renunciation brings abundance, not loss—captured through the metaphor of turning from false safety toward an approaching tsunami and discovering magic visible only when facing forward into change.Read
From Shame to Joy: Leave your Inner Critic BehindA personal account of transformation from decades of shame and self-loathing to embodied joy through the direct experience of basic goodness—showing how intellectual understanding differs radically from lived realization.Read
Tonight I am manA powerful awakening story of reclaiming masculine identity after a lifetime of rejection — both rejecting self as 'not man enough' and rejecting men for their violence — transforming internalized homophobia into an expansive appreciation for the love men bring to the world.Read
Life is not in the understanding, it’s in the experience. Embrace being an Astrocreature!A raw account of how grief created 135 pounds of protective armor, and how recognizing one's true nature as an experience-seeking 'astrocreature' dissolves decades of shame to reveal the adventurer waiting underneath.Read